Let's see. I've been too bored/lazy/uncaring to even blog lately. I've had inspiration hit me on and off but as my mom tells me time and time again, i am so inconsistent with everything i attempt to do (i can't find the right word actually so inconsistent shall do for now). Frankly, i agree but i don't care, it'll probably be my demise and obstacle to achieve success and all that but you can't miss what you don't have right? (Im being stupid and hard-headed but it's that's my mood and you're reading my blog.)

According to Wikipedia, "Children with much older siblings (generally ten or more years) may also have a similar family environment to only children." and "In Western culture, only children are often subject to a stereotype that equates them with spoiled brats." Those two sentences just about sums up my life.

See how cynical im feeling right now? Yes im feeling irritated and angry and all that jazz so that's why im blogging. That's why i ever blog. To let out my feelings...be it irritation, hurt, anger, happiness, relief etc etc. It's usually a combination of two or more and without the absence of hurt. The stupid mindless emotion i control every day but it still manages to eat at my insides.


The above (quoted stuff?) were supposed to be my status update at FB. But guess what? I've got some compassion left somewhere to not to ruin everybody else's Christmas Eve. That, and im a coward. I don't want my brothers seeing that.


I've had a bad day. Guess what, bad days are always my constant companion during the holidays. No normal relaxing fun-filled holidays for me. Uh uh. And today, is officially the worst ever possible day-before-birthday day. If that makes any sense.


I got in a fight with my mom. We get in fights day in and day out but hell, tomorrow is my birthday. I KNEW it would be the worst birthday ever in my whole (almost) 17 years of life on this demented earth. But great, here i am on a partially working laptop, in my room, at 10pm, having not eaten since 10am and no water left in my water bottle. And here i thought tomorrow's party full of old people would be the worst of my problems.


A whole party full of people i don't care about ( and who aren't even here for me), chattering bout old people stuff, with food i eat every day and rather dislike - whoopee. Enough of my ranting, might rant somemore after the dreaded party.

Today, the 5th of December....is Wendy Wong's birthday!! Woots. Had a superb surprise party/dinner at Sharing Planet. My stomach is trying to spit out some extras via its cardiac sphincter. I've gone absurd with too much studying lol.


Anyways SPM's almost over!! Woooooohoo. There's just Chemistry left and i haven't studied but i think everything's gonna be fine and dandy. Im just really really upset over Accounts and my Biologyy Paper 3.

NOOOO. This is like, a quick post before i go for tuition ;)


WTF tomorrow is the starting of yet another test. Why is it the more of them you take, the less important they seem to become? I was totally bent on ditching school tomorrow.


It's too late to cancel tuition! I didn't even plan my schedule...and i totally have no time for Sejarah. STOOOPIGGGG. I am not sane. Dammit

Sometimes good(?)/unexpected things happen so suddenly. Meeting someone new, getting to know someone, not liking some of the people you've wanted to meet or even finding yourself an enemy of a past friend. Things you've wanted to work out, even planned...never come to fruition. And yet fate has the best of plans when you're not even expecting it.





I've had my share of surprises in life. It's a rather unexpected journey. Sometimes i just can't help but to stop and wonder, what is the possibility of that happening to someone again?


We meet new people everyday but it's not an everyday occurrence to get to know someone new. We sometimes fail to remain in contact with our old friends but we never really forget them. Because meeting someone is one thing, meeting someone you actually like is another. Every encounter has it's own story.








I find myself a lot more emotional and prone to blog sentimental thoughts at night. Preferably around 11-2. Anyone know why? :(

As im sure everyone in Malaysia knows, we're going back a few kazillion decades by reverting our Science and Maths subjects back into Malay. Dumb, dumb and dumber...it's not really a surprise. Ever since this issue was brought up, i was quite sure they would change it back to Malay.

Why? You just gotta look at who's the ruling party in Malaysia. See which race has the most population due to them being able to reproduce at an alarming rate faster than an opossum. [Random fact: Opossums can give birth to 8-9 babies per litter. 1-3 litters per year.] Scared yet? lol. And if you haven't noticed, not many are pro in English (Unlike us, wahaha =X)





That's besides the point lah. Just telling you guys, must support English! Im not even trying to give you guys a choice. Just go to Dr. M's blog and vote 'No' for the poll, kay? He was the one who changed Science and Maths to English. I hope he can make it so forever. (Omgosh he TWEETS?!)





Must every story be about him? I don't even know him la. Granted, good music and nice moves. But besides that? Who knows if he is a good or bad person inside. Sian si can.



Feeling rather hot-headed today. And stubborn. Got blood red brace thingies yesterday. Kinda sick. Rather irritated at someone. Very irrational. Chiong kin Additional Mathematics Project. Printer is disagreeing.

My friends and I were supposed to help Puan Ting with the preparations but actually there wasn't much to do. We did most of our part yesterday. We were told to mill around and we did, in the end we actually fell unwittingly into the trap of a giant shark, Miss Lim. Don't laugh, it's not funny. She scary =.=


We were dragged to the ice cream stall and did whatnot while she yelled at us and gave us black glares. Like WHAT TURF LA, you should've gotten people beforehand. It's not our fault. And after 3 or 4 hours of slavering, we got nothing in return. I feel remorse, for not enjoying myself.


There were ducks. And a white pony and i even got nail art lol. And we went around laughing at the Cosplay people who were actually rather cute. I guess today wasn't so bad, at least we had stuff to do.



I wonder what tomorrow will bring. I say i don't care for the outcome, i say it's just for fun. I lie so well that i actually believe myself. One flaw of mine is i know im gonna screw up, yet i never try to make it otherwise. I know im gonna regret it, and i just sit and wait for the supposed inevitable.


I don't know whether there is such a thing. That our destiny is planned out for us, that whatever we do it's not gonna change anything. Sometimes i do, other times it's just a stupid excuse for being such a sloth.




Guess what im looking forward to. Not winning and getting to go to KL for the National Championship. Lol no way, im not that ambitious. Im looking forward to splurging on MNG, flip-flops and all other expensive shit after the competition.


Im not exactly rational now. I hope nobody knows who i am. I hope i will not get speller's block and/or emotional and cry. The teacher told me it's okay to cry. Aaargh. Not helping.

Walala...complete randomness. It's an inspired piece of writing, kay~ So definitely not bout me.

If you don't agree with me at all times, you're not my friend.
If you don't follow my command, you're not my friend.
If you're not like me, you're definitely not my friend.


So that's it? That shows what a great friend you are. Look up the word friend. There's no anger, there shouldn't be any hurt and there definitely should be tons of love present.




Forgiveness has its limits. You know when you've crossed the line. If you're not my friend, wipe that fake smile off your face and move aside please; i don't have time for you. If you don't care enough, don't talk to my face; i don't want you. Forget all the times we've laughed together, forget everything i've said to you and im sure you've forgotten everything i've done for you. You know what? I've forgotten what you look like too.

Lalala.
Im a shopaholic.
But before that, let me rewind to 5a.m. this morning.


I was dragged up at precisely 5 in the morning out of my absurdly comfortable bed. For what? To go to the cemetery lah. I won't go into the gruesome details and i don't have any pictures. Who would take pictures at the cemetery?! Siao meh.


After that, lunch and a nap, we went SHOPPING. Went to Boulevard and of course, there was a full-blown sale going on. Bought a sexy green tee and a green cucumber facial wash from Elianto. The salesgirl was pretty sweet and helpful. But of course, being the lazy ass that i am, i didn't even bother to take some pictures.



But, im nice so i googled it. LOL. Okay, the salesgirl claims it's good for blackheads and it does whitening too. Don't they all?

Anyways she told me, YOU HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH YOUR SKIN LEH.
My parents said, YOU WILL SPOIL YOUR SKIN.
And i said to myself, YOU PROBABLY'LL ONLY USE IT TWICE A YEAR.

Still, i bought it. My mom refused point-blank to buy it for me. So wth, i bought it myself lah. See what i meant bout being a shopaholic? I have a Compulsive Shopping Disorder.

As you can see, it's a super big bun. There's like aluminum foil inside and you have a choice of either beef soup or satay sauce. This one is satay. Satay is awesome! You just tear of a piece of the bread and dip it in the sauce. It's from Clover. Total perfection.











First 3 group pictures were taken by Dadi. Beh bai lorr...people really got the skill to squeeze everyone in and not to mention being able to make everyone look pretty decent. Especially the less photogenic ones. Wahlala~ means me duh. Last one was taken by Kath i think. Were camwhoring while everyone else were copying something on the OHP. Such passionate students we are.


And these, are what i bought last week.










Lmao, i am aware the last picture is stupidly random and has no particular meaning at all. But i really got buy milk bah! And the platinum pearl shade of Elianto nail polish from the Spring branch which i didn't bother to take a picture of.


Finally got new sport shoes. And the pink is just a shade brighter than baby pink, me loves till death!! And a new book too. It's really really awesome. It's about faeries and curses and romance? It's nice though.


So there. Finished my supply of pictures. Went for the Spelling Bee competition with Geok Ling, Kathleen, Vivian etc etc. I got 2nd wtf, ftw. Manoevre your ass Miss Law, whatever you and Oxford say, it's still maneuver.

Today was kinda crazy. Everyone was relaxed and having a mild head in the clouds feeling. Wendy brought Nail Polish Remover for the guys whose nails were painted the day before (and the day before that too)...serve them right for sleeping! lol. I think the only willing victim was TK...and im sure he secretly harbours a desire to wear pink nail polish.




Vivian didn't go to school. So Kim Chern was restless and somehow wormed his way in between Kath and Wendy. And then he was stealing Kath's biscuits and getting scolded which i thought was extremely funny, skinny people fighting over food. Skinny non-poverty-stricken people fighting over biscuits. So l-o-l


We camwhored, took random pictures of random things, recorded funny videos etc...and even played with those paper claw things. I don't even know who made them. Im sure it was the guys but suddenly only us three had them...lol we're skilled at stealing things undiscovered.

Exactly. That book rocks. I want one. But 30 bucks? For a book i've read (actually reading, but will have read by the time im gonna buy it)? Is it really that good? Maybe =p





It's rad really. For girls la. Greg and Liz tell all you awesome girls out there to keep your head and stop making all those stupid excuses (cough, desperate lies, cough) for the wrongs that are made by the guys you like.


One thing i've learned so far (i just finished the 6th chapter) is that guys, still follow the rules of dating that were made and have been used since the stone age. Except now we have cellphones! (Sarcasm..?)


Okay la, the whole point of the book is to open your eyes and believe in what you see. If he doesn't call you, if he doesn't make your relationship clear, if he makes excuses..if you find that you're making excuses for him: end it lah. Sure, easier said than done but just remember: if he's really into you, he'll make an effort.


But the thing i enjoy is getting surpirsed by Greg. There's lots of letters from girls out there and some of the excuses seem pretty logical. But Greg is damn mean...okay la, just the harsh-no-excuses type. Nikki sucks. lol


Anyways it's a nice read. You can take it seriously; you can just laugh it off as a joke but you just can't deny it's good for light reading (i think?). I enjoy it la...cos somethings are just so obvious, but ironically that's the thing you just can't (or won't?) see.



On a another note, I HATE MAO. Okay the best author ever is Garth Nix. I swear he rocks. I love Sabriel. Im halfway through (and blur over) Lirael and i want Abhorsen! Wtfff. I wish i could buy the 7 book series written by him as well. The Keys to the Kingdom series. But it's like seven books which will cost bout rm160? I don't think i can fool my dad into buying 7 books costing that much in one go. Yes, the only way for me is one go...im just greedy like that.


The title hasn't been decided (or merely not yet released) for the last book. I saw a copy of Superior Saturday just now at MPH. Itchy hands! But i like complete sets...one random book sticking out sucks. Who has the complete set? *winks* lol

Im blogging now 'cos i found something blog-able. I know, im still crazy over Twilight? Probably. But now my favorite author would be Garth Nix.

You're the Twilight Series, one of the nominees for Favorite Book. You're passionate, romantic, and mysterious. You've got Edward's intensity and Bella's curiosity, and when people get to know you, they sometimes get a bit obsessed. You're very emotional, but surprisingly strong. You'd do anything for the people (or vamps) that you love... but is it enough to win you a KCA blimp?

lol...people are like, people. But im a series? Jeez, and i didn't know books could be passionate and all that....it's pretty cool eh? Anyways i want a blimp! lol

Rearranged my playlist. Was bored with the last order it was in. I just controlled A and threw everything in. But i wonder...how come it wasn't in alphabetical order? Anyways it makes no difference...all the songs are the ones i downloaded myself and love to death though in different magnitudes.

So, for the time being...i suppose i'll let it rot. Which i am doing actually. Lots of things have happened, yet i don't feel inclined to post them in this blog and share those beautiful memories. Sometimes i wonder, what is wrong with me?

Flowers and hearts everywhere. All those lovey-dovey couples and people who love other people. Spending their money on overpriced goods. Well, at least they're happy?



I have people who i love too la. But im not gonna take a leaf outta Miss Law's bloody book and give presents to all of them. Im so not crazy...and it's definitely not Christmas. Maybe next year guys.




This is Sohai King's contribution for this V-day post. He wants you all to see the light. Be enlightened by him. Doesn't that sound holy?








See what i mean? Yes, that's SK (Sohai King or Suku Kia)! You know who it looks like? I pray you don't, or you'll probably be banging your head now and never wanna talk to him again. The resemblance is freakin' scary!

Dunno how many decades ago...- rewind - it was actually last Friday. Wendy brought the small tubes of blow-able plastic stuff that we blew into big bubbles.




These are my early V-day Pressies =)




All from Geok. Hah she loves me =X But then, they were almost extinct by the time i went home. Everyone from 5S2 suddenly had this very kind notion of helping me finish eating the chocs. Now everyone's full of love!! lol

We didn't do much la...i just remembered we rushed a lot of past homework that we have to pass up tomorrow as it's the last day before CNY. Can't wait! After tomorrow, i can scream SEE YA, SUCKERS! to lotsa people lmao. Not that i would...im too nice to do that :D


We took pics for our Moral Project that was burnt in the fire. I still have to retake the ones at home...rawr! They're all in Vivian's pinky camera. After that, we hid to camwhore. I have no idea why we did that. I think Vivian just screamed, let's camwhore in that dirty little corner there! Then we all rushed there o.O




All stolen from Vivian's blog. A weird new teacher guy came to see what weird stuff we were doing. And ironically, the last rushed picture was the nicest. So l-o-l. I hate my pink braces. They look like my gums when i smile...!! >.-"

Okay im still not better, maybe worse. Been dripping and feeling alternately cold and hot for the past two days. I don't feel up to doing anything at all except laying on the couch. Yes, im becoming a couch potato...zzz. I skipped PBK yesterday, but i still have tons of homework untouched.

I haven't been online and i haven't been posting even though there's a lot to post about. This is all thanks to my awesome internet connection that only listens to my bro's orders, not mine. I was without internet for a week or so (seemed like months to me).


The new year sucks man. I've changed. It's really unexpected...i actually do my homework now!! It's a new disease infecting most Form 5s! Lol i actually find there's not enough time to finish your homework, what with school and tuitions everyday. I haven't even been doing anything recreational this week...it's quite sad really.


My brother's home from KL! Kinda happy cos he seems happier. He bought shirts for everyone...a red singlet for me! Im so happy 'cos for some reason, red is now officially my favorite color. My family all says it looks nice...but im too shy to wear it outside actually. I was thinking maybe with a jacket...but what's the point of wearing a singlet when you're wearing a jacket on the outside? So oh well...i might not wear it much =)


I am dripping none stop right now. Yes, dripping. I was just back from Physics and i am terribly sick. It must be the cold weather. I have a runny nose and a migraine right now. I have been glaring at Mr. Lee for the past two hours due to his badly-concealed pervvy jokes. I do not like to hear those when im terribly cold and sick. I couldn't really concentrate so i guess it was a waste of time. Gosh, im hoping i can skip PBK tomorrow!!